sad siaz
Monday, May 21, 2007

hi people . . here to blog again . . today i cried . . but thanks to hui ying, jie min, nina, i cheer up . . and thank you fan, lyt and jia min for the company during lunch . . recess i didnt eat a single thing coz i went to see mr elango; got scolding but not really scolding me also . . but still i felt that i was responsible . . is it because of me that the people dont want to come? is it because i didnt beg them enough? i'm really lost . . or i didnt please them to make them happy then they will come? have i failed in my responsibilities again? haiz . . i have been thinking: have i done enough? or should i be doing more . . people tell me to not push all the blame on myself but i just felt responsible . . maybe i am not a good leader, i can't seem to influence the people ard me . . i finally cannot take it when mr wong said: red cross is a joke right? NO! i strongly believe NO . . but i cannot seem to make others share the same belief as me . . why? its really the last parade already . . nobody is forcing you to come back after that . . really don't know how . .


my last parade
Sunday, May 20, 2007

hii pple . . long time never blog liaoz . . haiz . . i finally pass out . . time really flies . . before i knew it, i had to leave . . i really cant bear to leave, especially all my friends, mardhiyah, ting lei, jia min, raudah. ow yong xin wei geraldine . . e six of us have been through so much together . . happy moments, sad moments . . i really want to thank them for all that they have done for me and all the beautiful memories that they gave me . . i guess i will never ever forget them in my life . . what mardhiyah says is true: ever since training have stop, we didnt really talk much . . i am worried that we will keep drifting apart until one day when we see each other on street, we wouldn't even say hi . . i hope that day will never come . . i won't give any promises to anybody because i don't want to be another PERSON that breaks promises but i will come back even if i'm not a VI . . i will come back not because of red cross but of geraldine, jia min and mr wong . . i want to thank mr wong chin seng, ms sheryl peng for all the sacrifices they have made for us, and ms tan, mr wong and ms peng for making the passing out parade a success . . i also want to thank all the pple in FDC 2005 for all the memories, and all the FDC 2006 and 07 for all the support you gerls/guys gave me . . lastly i want to thank mr paul for the wonderful speech day parade . . it is until speech day that i realize i really have to pack all my feelings and get ready to leave . . so i enjoy every moment of the parade . . enjoy every joke, every laughter that we share, be it Ncc or red cross . . i also want to thank Ncc for being our part of our "family" . . hahaz . . hope that our relationship will never end . . i better end now or i will start crying again . . thank everybody for making my life in red cross so wonderful though its really tough at times . . i think that it's really the process that matter, not the results . .